And so now i realize that getting good results isn't everything. It just secures my future so that it would be stable...financially. What i was missing all these years are my social life and i realized now (with a blow) that being able to communicate with others also play a major role in my life. Having said that, i decided to quit instant messaging temporarily to see how far i can go.
I really need to get a life of my own and not depend on others. This is very very depressing...
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
Things That Dont Change part 2
Before the New Year arrived, many Penangites gather around Gurney Drive to celebrate. That's alright with me. What's not alright is when i read some forum about some incident that happened at Gurney Drive involving Ah Bengs (and possibly Ah Liens?). Some cyclists were cycling pass the big crowd when some stupid ah bengs started to spray snow-sprays on them. They even pushed those poor cyclists down and start stomping on their bikes. I mean come on, how noob can they be??? What does stomping on the bikes prove them to be? Some jacked up morons?? Police came soon after that only to be targets to throw those cans at. Some ah bengs were arrested for vandalising and being mischieve. Padan muka to both parties. New Year coming also want to act like children. Malaysia Boleh!!!
My parents asked me this question before: "games games games, when only you will stop buying games". Sigh, one day, it shall be my turn to ask back "when only you will stop buying number (lottery)?" I mean, there's no logic in asking me when i will stop buying games. I already bought the console to play games, right? It will be VERY STUPID if i were to stop buying games and have the console there collecting dust. IINM, last time parents are the ones who encourage us to read more storybooks. Games are a form of storybook, its just the way it tells the story that is interactive. I dont read boring novels and books...i enjoy pop-up books though LOL. Hey, at least games are better than buying lottery, you know...Lottery...pfft...waste of money. Better go invest in something more useful la...
Haih, a part of me says "its ok...let it go...hold too tightly, the bird will die...let it loose and the bird will come back to you" (sound so lame~~). Another part of me says "keep holding on to what you want to achieve, dont let it go". As a result...i have mixed feelings. Like for example, A (guy) and B (girl) are couples. B wants to go dancing with C (guy). A says no problem since he's just her friend. After that night, B talks a lot about C and plans to go out dancing more often with C. A feels isolated although loved at the same time. A confesses that he is jealous of B and C so close together. B and C shoots A by saying they are just friends. A feels guilty. You know what i mean...
My parents asked me this question before: "games games games, when only you will stop buying games". Sigh, one day, it shall be my turn to ask back "when only you will stop buying number (lottery)?" I mean, there's no logic in asking me when i will stop buying games. I already bought the console to play games, right? It will be VERY STUPID if i were to stop buying games and have the console there collecting dust. IINM, last time parents are the ones who encourage us to read more storybooks. Games are a form of storybook, its just the way it tells the story that is interactive. I dont read boring novels and books...i enjoy pop-up books though LOL. Hey, at least games are better than buying lottery, you know...Lottery...pfft...waste of money. Better go invest in something more useful la...
Haih, a part of me says "its ok...let it go...hold too tightly, the bird will die...let it loose and the bird will come back to you" (sound so lame~~). Another part of me says "keep holding on to what you want to achieve, dont let it go". As a result...i have mixed feelings. Like for example, A (guy) and B (girl) are couples. B wants to go dancing with C (guy). A says no problem since he's just her friend. After that night, B talks a lot about C and plans to go out dancing more often with C. A feels isolated although loved at the same time. A confesses that he is jealous of B and C so close together. B and C shoots A by saying they are just friends. A feels guilty. You know what i mean...
Things That Dont Change
The new year has been ushered in 17 hours ago. It was a bad start and it keeps me wondering why we are such fools to welcome it with arms wide open. Does it really bring a whole new meaning to the world? Does it change things like how we wanted it to be? Does our new year resolution really matter? If they all matter, why do nations still wage war against one another? Greed...ego...satisfaction...pride... all sorts of excuses. It makes me sick sick SICK!!!
Last year, the government said that they wont increase the price of petrol until 2008, well guess what? They're so smart that they planned to increase the price starting 2008! As we are celebrating the New Year (honestly i dont know what's the hype all about), they will be laughing their @$$ off at how foolish we, the citizens, are our ignorance. The reason I bring this up is because during other times when there's no special ocassion and when the prices increase, there will be many forms of strikes by the people to show how displeased they are. Pathetic. We all know oil are running short, and we need to find an alternative. Does price increase solve that? No. they should be hiring and paying more to scientists instead!
Another unrelated thing that i want to mention is that some people talk before they think. I am one of them, although not as bad as what im about to mention. Some are totally ignorant of how others feel, and they think its funny. Take for example a situation where A insults B using A's mother tongue language. B will definitely be oblivious of what the crap A is saying. Is this how immatures insult others? They cant speak in general terms, therefore uses own language to insult? To me, A's just a noob. If A and B are of the same race and A insults B using their mother tongue language, it is not as hurtful as the previous situation as far as i know. The worst is when A, who is not the same race as B, starts cursing using B's mother tongue language. I think i know how it feels now...
I remembered an advice given to me by my ex. She always said "dont always assume". Why she said that? Because im always the one who is too observant of her surroundings, making me the one who does all the thinking. I always tried to make things better by assuming the worse, assuming what she will do, what she will think...etc...And in return, when things dont go so well...she gives me the "dont always assume" sentence. I mean WTF?! So, im supposed not to assume...fine...Then from then on, i stopped assuming. She gave me lots of "signs", i purposely ignore because i dont want to assume anymore...and what do i get in return?
1) "you dont know how i feel"
2) "whats wrong with you?" <- in this case, she ACTS like a caring person
So which is it? Do you want me to know how you feel without me assuming what you're thinking? You think im psychic? I was just your bf and you are supposed to tell me if there's anything. You shouldnt have said that i shouldnt assume. I even tried it on a lecturer about a maths question, and he replied "i thought this you should know how to do" proves that we are supposed to assume. So your theory about "you should not assume" sucks.
A lot of people ask me why i always like to stay at home. They say "So sien la stay at home, dont always watch show and play la". Well, screw you guys. What do you do when you go out? You go to the cinema (equivalent of watching show), you go for mamak (which costs a bomb for a drink that has cockroaches in it), go for sports and spend time with friends. Yeah right...spend time...
Like spending time with devils. Ask me to go out "spend time with friends" is not the same as making fun of me. Im always the subject to get bullied. If thats what you have to offer me everytime i go out with you, then no thanks. You guys go ahead, i dont need you...pretenders...
Im also sick and tired of planning stuff that nobody wants to participate. Stuff like asking people out and planning or organizing something big, just to be told "if nobody go, i wont go". What the heck is that?? If everyone says the same thing, then no need to go la. People who says that, have no decision making skills. Why cant you just say that you can go, and let me do the rest of the planning? Then i will decide to go with it or to cancel it when there are not enough to participate. Idiots...
To be continued...
Last year, the government said that they wont increase the price of petrol until 2008, well guess what? They're so smart that they planned to increase the price starting 2008! As we are celebrating the New Year (honestly i dont know what's the hype all about), they will be laughing their @$$ off at how foolish we, the citizens, are our ignorance. The reason I bring this up is because during other times when there's no special ocassion and when the prices increase, there will be many forms of strikes by the people to show how displeased they are. Pathetic. We all know oil are running short, and we need to find an alternative. Does price increase solve that? No. they should be hiring and paying more to scientists instead!
Another unrelated thing that i want to mention is that some people talk before they think. I am one of them, although not as bad as what im about to mention. Some are totally ignorant of how others feel, and they think its funny. Take for example a situation where A insults B using A's mother tongue language. B will definitely be oblivious of what the crap A is saying. Is this how immatures insult others? They cant speak in general terms, therefore uses own language to insult? To me, A's just a noob. If A and B are of the same race and A insults B using their mother tongue language, it is not as hurtful as the previous situation as far as i know. The worst is when A, who is not the same race as B, starts cursing using B's mother tongue language. I think i know how it feels now...
I remembered an advice given to me by my ex. She always said "dont always assume". Why she said that? Because im always the one who is too observant of her surroundings, making me the one who does all the thinking. I always tried to make things better by assuming the worse, assuming what she will do, what she will think...etc...And in return, when things dont go so well...she gives me the "dont always assume" sentence. I mean WTF?! So, im supposed not to assume...fine...Then from then on, i stopped assuming. She gave me lots of "signs", i purposely ignore because i dont want to assume anymore...and what do i get in return?
1) "you dont know how i feel"
2) "whats wrong with you?" <- in this case, she ACTS like a caring person
So which is it? Do you want me to know how you feel without me assuming what you're thinking? You think im psychic? I was just your bf and you are supposed to tell me if there's anything. You shouldnt have said that i shouldnt assume. I even tried it on a lecturer about a maths question, and he replied "i thought this you should know how to do" proves that we are supposed to assume. So your theory about "you should not assume" sucks.
A lot of people ask me why i always like to stay at home. They say "So sien la stay at home, dont always watch show and play la". Well, screw you guys. What do you do when you go out? You go to the cinema (equivalent of watching show), you go for mamak (which costs a bomb for a drink that has cockroaches in it), go for sports and spend time with friends. Yeah right...spend time...
Like spending time with devils. Ask me to go out "spend time with friends" is not the same as making fun of me. Im always the subject to get bullied. If thats what you have to offer me everytime i go out with you, then no thanks. You guys go ahead, i dont need you...pretenders...
Im also sick and tired of planning stuff that nobody wants to participate. Stuff like asking people out and planning or organizing something big, just to be told "if nobody go, i wont go". What the heck is that?? If everyone says the same thing, then no need to go la. People who says that, have no decision making skills. Why cant you just say that you can go, and let me do the rest of the planning? Then i will decide to go with it or to cancel it when there are not enough to participate. Idiots...
To be continued...
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