Friday, January 15, 2010

No Need Title...

How sucky can my life be? I mean, my WHOLE DAMN life is full of ffkers. Shit, being an ffker damn nice la now is it?! Fine, I can play this game too. Or probably not, because I'm a damn nice guy to begin with. "hey, look it's mr nice guy, lets ffk him...he wont be angry with us". Yeah, take advantage all you want, karma is gonna bite you in the ass one day.

On a side note, I've gotta get my body checked soon since being such a nice guy is utterly unfair as I began experiencing all kinds of shit going through my body. Since college I've been experiencing pain in my heart (yes...real pain, although other kinds of "heart pain" were present during that time). The pain is like a needle pricking from the inside out, but rarely happens. It happens at random times.

Oddly enough, it doesn't happen when I'm excited; such as playing outdoor games, laughing out loud, watching pr0n, or breathing heavily whatsoever. It just happens randomly just like yesterday when i was sitting down calmly programming a software while it struck me from within *ughH~~* and its gone.

Is it my heart or my lungs? It is always at the same place (which is at the heart). Thinking hard whether to tell parents about this or not...cause Im their only son...and what if diagnosed...and said if I could not live long *touch wood*...what would be their reaction...damn...i wanna cheat death lehhhhh...wanna have a family with grand kids first before i go...*denggg, emo-ing already*. Bah, go rest 1st...