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Lately, I have always been comparing myself with others just to see how much luckier, better-looking, and fortunate than I am. Is it me, or am I really sensitive when I always feel that people are watching me in public thinking that I look like a weirdo?

The fact is, I am being an underweight for a long long time already, but my parents always say I look like this because they too were like that during their age. Is it their genes that make me who I am now, or are my daily activities and diet affecting me physically? When I put my arms forward, I can see my neck bones jutting out. If i stretch my arms backwards, I can see my rib cage bones. Shit, I dont even have 6 pacs. When I'm carrying heavy boxes, my arms will display not muscles, but bones...pffffttttt

When I look into the mirror, I see myself as being perfect, but when I step out of the house...everyone's bigger and fitter. Could it be a matter of my fashion choice? If I wear an M shirt (I'm S-sized by the way), people would say I look small. If I wear an S shirt, people would say "wtf, eat more rice la...diu, no girl would want you as their boyfriend la...cant even protect her with your size". -____________-"

And then, there are times I often compare myself to those who play basketball. Why? Because apparently, chix dig these guys...VERY MUCH. Why? Because apparently, they have the moves and style and they look sexy doing it in the bball court. How come chix dont dig badminton players, or paintballers, or table tennis players? Why?! It's like the same when I say "guys dig OLs", but that's just being stereotypical.