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You also should not expect a lot aka dont "perasan". Whatever intention that is done for/to you, is not exactly what you think it is. It might be something unique/special/extraordinary to you, but for the other person, it might just be a normal casual thing which doesn't mean anything. Expecting a lot would only lead to one thing: Disappointment. From there, bad stress may develop and cause you to get demotivated, have low self-esteem, and also feel hatred for a period of time. You do not want to express these feelings in public, do you?

Language seems to be a common problem for a person like you. To overcome this, you would have to bear with the fact that your own origins are...well...different from other people of the same race. Learn to listen to conversations carefully, pick up words that are easy to hear/say, remember the meanings and try to apply them in daily conversations. A simple one will do, it doesn't have to be a complicated and long sentence. And remember to converse with a person who really knows what you are trying to say so that s/he can correct your mistakes. Of course, dont go talk in chinese with a stranger, later s/he will look at you with one kind of expression, your face also gone!

Although i've always been around chinese educated people, sometimes it just feels awkward when all of them converse in chinese while i'm the only one being quiet throughout the duration. Sigh, yes, I'm used to it...but I'm still human leh, I will get annoyed wan leh...What's worse is when people start making fun of me...in chinese!!! FUUUUUU!!! Personally, i feel that reading from a chinese guide book is not as effective as speaking and listening to the language itself. Every once in a while when i catch a word which is commonly used, i would ask if it means that something in english. So if it matches, then it would be quite easy for me to relate to cantonese as well.